bonjour

Just when you thought you’re all set, something will happen and change your mind. Sigh.

And this is for the best.

At this point, I really don’t know anymore.

Hurt and in pain. I guess this is what you get when you expect. Sigh.

Praying for good news and good things. All up to you now, Lord.

October

It’s almost end of October. And one blink, it’s end of 2018. Time, please slow down a bit.

So, I got promoted recently and of course, I feel good and grateful, but, I know in my heart that this is not the work that I would like to pursue anymore. I’m really hoping for positive news about this certain job that I will be checking next week. I really hope it’s something that I want. I’m reaching out to God, asking Him to guide me if this is really for me. I know, somehow, I need to take the leap.

Retail will forever have a place in my heart but it’s so tiring already. During my 1 week break, I was able to confirm to myself that this is not what I want anymore. Retail is exciting and fast paced, and something that I’m quite interested in but it’s taking over my life. I know that I will still feel the same way even though I try to suck things up. Lord, I just want clarity.

Also, I need clarity in terms of relationship. I know that he hasn’t reached his time yet, when it comes to work but why do I feel that he’s not doing his 100%? I want to settle down already but I don’t think that’s gonna happen soon, even though he said he wants to settle down by 30. That’s already next year! Maybe things have their own reasons. I don’t know. Sometimes I want to give him a timeline but that doesn’t sound fair to him… But what will make him push?!?! I’m so frustrated and sad.